its highly contagioux

im going KAMI crazee.

2008-07-24T11:06:00.001+08:00

hey all!
dont mind me.
when you're bored..
cant sleep at night.. you tend to watch weird tv series..
dts what i did and im so addicted to it!

ahh!
catch KAMI on 8tv @ 12am
every mondays

its such a nice show
wanna check out more.
go to www.projekkami.com

btw, they're making a movie out of it..
it show in october!
dts 2mnths away!
im sure to be counting down and hope id be the first to watch it..

the series is in half malay and english..
they even have subtitles.

:D this series just puts a smile on my face :)

the movie.

the cast.

the series.

aww :)

love is a 4 letter word for emotional blackmail.

2008-07-23T16:22:00.002+08:00

-if you really mean so.. i guess it maybe goodbye-

if it is really nothing..why be scared?

i hate being at home..
i guess the 2weeks of spending time is a sign.
the last time ill see dt smiley face.

*sigh*
urgh! im not some crazy obsessed gf.
im just avoiding it.. so that i DONT have to go through it a 2nd time.

oh well,
we cant change the past, we cant correct the unforseen future.
just got to deal with it. eventhough it hurts..
thats life.

you use to be the one who puts a smile on my face.

2008-07-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

hello you.

i just finished my Menu planning.
it was okay.
praying really hard ill pass.

next up Bm.
*urgh!*

i need a break.
a 1wk break.
i need to think&re-think.
but im afraid to do so.

i guess..
its time..
time i say stop to all the bullshit.
maybe its real, maybe its not.
i just dont know.

how do you say goodbye
when you know you don't mean it?

how do you believe someone
when all they've done is leaving you a stray

how do you trust someone
when they dont show you they're even trying.

full of crappy feelings.
full of doubts.

isit normal?
well, if it is..
it hurts..in&out.

this is not the first time feeling like this.
but then again..
its different from the rest.

~~17/3/07~~
does this even mean a thing to you?

from us to me&you.

say hi to our behinds!

2008-07-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

Happy 1yr and 4mnths anniversary baby.
i love you!
:)

F&b was fine.
pastry was so screwed up!
but then again..
its only 3o marks :D
hehehehhehe

hello!it's me again :)

2008-07-16T20:06:00.003+08:00

firstly,

Sup?!

hahaha..its been more than ages since i last blogged.
loads been happening. and i just dont know where to start.
exams now&im being a bum blogging.

had my food production exam like yesterday
and it was a screw up!
Mr.Gerhard and Philip were the invigilators.
i just freaked out when i got scolded for chopping onions wrongly.
and my dish turned out Shitty as per normal.
i did fish florentine with Anna potatoes, vichy carrots&sauteed french beans.
For the Starter i did Ceasar salad.
i ended up poaching my fish in chicken stock.
i blanched my beans with Mels veges, sauteed my french beans with ians broccoli and carrots.
took some of buddins potatoes and almost burnt my Vichy carrots.
&My ceasar salad was so Yucky!

ben's classes started and his timetable is so packed!
when my classes start i wouldnt be able to see him :(
i have classes for only 2days and the breaks dont clash with his.
that sucks! i wont be able to see my baby. :(
but oh well, maybe is for the better.
i dont know.
i made it a point to spend time with him
for my 2wk break but then again..
im going penang
BOO!
hope when classes start id be able to see him even just for a lil while.

OH YEAH!
i would like to take this lil space to wish my bestie..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SERRA!
hope u having a great one.
if not. theres always the 19!
hehehehehe
be merry! ure bloody 18 now!
and i have to wait another yr to be legal!
hahahahhahahahah..

will always be here 4u..
no matter what :)
Love yah!

lastly,
if i dont get to blog tumoro..

HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!
I LOVEEE YOU VERY MUCH :D
-17/07/08-

i guess dts abt it..
my heads blank and ive got to study!
F&B tumoro..
*sigh*

how am i suppose to feel when you're not here,

2008-06-25T21:10:00.002+08:00

cos i burned every bridge i ever built when you were here.

boring day at coll.
my brain is practically fried due to F&b.
hahahhahhaha

dont know.
im just so lost..
*sigh*

why do people over-exaggerate when they miss someone or love someone so much?
i just dont get it.
sorry to all you people.
i dont get that which i wish someday i will.
someone would just tell me how much they miss me.need me blah blah.
well, whatever! i couldnt really careless abt that right now.

its weird for my mom to come up to me and say.
hope one day you find someone that loves you blah blah.
and something abt me being a chef&marrying the G.M of a hotel.
hahahhaa
the first thing i said is ben leh?
and she goes..
ahyo. too playful that boy..
his friends&life comes first.
he may say you play a huge role in his life
what he actually means is you will play a huge role when he needs you.
in his life ure at the bottom. trust me.

that hurt though.
but maybe its true..
i realize it somehow but im too blind to admit it.
when ure head over heels for someone who is just there for you.
it kinda hurts when you fall.
he'll only say he'll save you or catch you.
but it never will happen.
he maybe busy with the guys or at home playing the latest online games.
*sigh*

well, whatever.
i just couldnt careless.
unless he shows me that i should.

that's what you get when you let your heart win.

2008-06-24T18:17:00.002+08:00

i still hold on to silly things i never learn.

its almost 1yr since i started in KDU.
and pretty soon ill be in cula2,
how fast time goes by.

im very bored at home.
i need to study but my brain is just not functioning.
yes ppl! i do study now.
and i have been for the past 1yr.
dont talk abt highschool,
i hated highschool.
i was that couldn't careless abt my studies&myself.

i really dont know what to say now,
i feel cheated.
i just feel very used.
i dont know.
isit just me?
i reach the point where i just dont want to see anyone.
maybe it is just me?

i feel lost..
i feel very far away from you.
isit just me?
i feel very happy with you but somethings missing?
something.
maybe its just me?
i dont know.

PMS gets the worst of you.
*giggles*

this post is full of crap.
justin i know you reading this.
whats with the birds?
ben&i?
hahahahahaha
silly you :)

Tagged from laarnia :D

2008-06-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

1. Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
hahahaha..yeah?why?no?i guess?

2. Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
*blush*

3. Who was the last person to call you?
dad.

4. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had
water.

5. When was the last time you cried?

6. Are you scared of spiders?
no.yes.no.not really.

7. When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
havent been drunk in ages.

8. Do you miss anyone?
everyone.

9. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yeah.

10. What are your plans for this weekend?
sleep.study.F&b!!

11. Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
yeah.

12. Ever been to a bonfire party?
yeah.

13. Have you ever been on a horse?
yeah.

14. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
my baby calls me baby :D

15. What's irritating you right now?
my stomach.

16. Are you afraid of the dark?
nope.

17. Are you listening to music right now?
nope.

18. Do you know your father's birthday?
duh!ofcos!yeah!

19. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?

20. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
call him.

21. Do you have any strange phobias?
is being afraid of mascots a phobia?

22. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
easy to forgive, hard to forget.

23. Do you give out second chances too easily?
depends.no.

24. Do you have a best friend?
everyone is my bestfriend.
but i do have a few lovelies i consider my world.

25. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
room mate!.

26. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
yeah. :(

27. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
mel&tam

28. Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
no?wtf?

29. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah.

30. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
yeah.

31. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
yeah.

32. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
happily in love :D

33. Have you ever been cheated on?
yeah.

34. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
yeah.

35. Talk to your ex's?
yeah.

36. If you could go back in time would you change things with an ex?
yeah, make it less heartbreaking.

37. Have you dated people who weren't good to you?
yeah.

38. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
depends.no.

39. Believe in love at first sight?
nope.

40. Is heartbreak really as bad as it sounds?
yeah.

41. What was the last conversation you had with your best friend about?
dresses&sleepover&movie.

42. Has anyone ever kissed you on the tip of your nose?
yeah.

43. Are you afraid of roller coasters?
nope.

44. How is life going for you right now?
exams coming up :|

45. Is there any meaning behind your profile song?
song?what song?

46. Do you believe what comes around goes around?
Y.E.S.

47. Is your best friend pretty/handsome?
:) all my bestfriends are just gorgeous.

48. Do you trust people easily?
nope.yes.depends.

49. What's the one thing that always gets you through the day?
sleep.

50. Do you give out second chances easily?
wth?again with you?

51. What will you name your daughter?
haven't thought of it.

52. What will you name your son?
OH! i have thought of this.
Nicholas matthew leong Son lou. :D
(ben!!hehe)

53. Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
i LOVE hugs!

54. What color are your eyes?
dark brown.

55. Who made you smile today?
joseph :D

56. Do you smile a lot?
surprisingly not really.

57. Best thing that happened to you this week?
ben!

58. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
take up arts in highschool.

59. Are you an emotional person?
HAHAHAH
ask the ppl whom knows me best.

60. Are you self-conscious?
yeah.

61. Current music?

62. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
my friends&family.

63. Something you're looking forward to?
holiday!

64. What are you not looking forward to?
holiday? hahaha

65. What are your plans for your next birthday?
screw birthdays.

66. Do you even care about birthday presents?
yeah.

67. Do you think anyone out there loves you?
everyone has someone to love.

68. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yeah.

69. What is the last thing you ate?
curry fish head.

70. Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?

71. Who is the 2nd person on your missed call list?
tammy.

72. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping.

73. What does your last received text message say?
"i love you baby."

74. Whats the weirdest thing you've cooked in the microwave?
goowee baby food.

75. Are you offended by dumb blonde jokes?
no.

76. How does your hair look right now?
curly.

77. Will this weekend be good?
its already sat.

78. What's your favorite number?
17.

79. Look to your right, what do you see?
books.

80. What classes do you consider to be naptime?
F&b.

81. Do you get attached to people easily?
yeah.kinda.

82. Why are you online?
nothing more or less to do.

83. What happened a year ago today?
getting ready for a wedding.

84. Has anyone made you cry recently?
nope.

85. Are you looking forward to tomorrow?
nah.

86. Where is the person you want most now?
at his friends hse.

87. Where will you be 2 hours from now?
in bed.

88. Does your ex miss you?
nope.

89. Does anyone love you?
yeah.

90. Can you make yourself sneeze?
nope.

91. What are you doing tomorrow?
church.

92. Are you easily confused?
yeah.

93. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
i dont know.

94. Where were you at 9am this morning?
in bed.

95. Everything happens for a reason?
YEAH.

96. When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
not sure.

97. What are you listening to right now?
the fan spinning.

98. How has the week been?
tiring.

99. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
yeah.

100. Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
yeah.

101. Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope.

102. Are you too forgiving?
no.yes.no.i dont know.

103. What do you want your future career to be?
Hahahaha. i cant stand the heat so im the future pastry chef/photographer :D

104. Have you ever wanted to be a firefighter?
nope.

105. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
cake.

106. Are you signed onto AIM?
nope.

107. If you could have any car what would it be?
mini cooper. suzuki swift! DAMN!

108. What are you stressed out about?
nothing. F&b!

109. How many windows are open on your computer?
2.

110. In the past week have you gotten sick?
yeah.

111. In the past week have you gotten your hair cut?
nope.

112. Who was your last call from?
ben.

113. What can't you wait for?
holiday.

114. What do you do most of the time?
computer; sleep; eat.f&b!

115. How much clothes do you have in your closet?
its a jungle in there.

116. On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?
5.

117. What kind of purse do you have?
a big fat one.

118. Do you think you're attractive?
am i?

119. Do you have a lot of friends?
the list keeps growing.

120. Are you high maintenance?
am i?

TAGGED:
*justin
*natalia
*laarnia
*marvin
*ser
*rhea

EVERYONE!

boredom at KDU?

2008-06-19T13:48:00.002+08:00

college is just so darn boring.

sitting at the comp lab doing absolutely nothing.
have u had one of those days you feel
blank?

no air?

2008-06-17T13:37:00.002+08:00

*but how do you expect me to live alone with just me,
cos my world revolves around you its
so...

HARD

FOR

TO BREATHE!*

hello me darlings! im back!
too lazy to blog but i got the will to blog today.

lifes getting edgier now..
the pressures rising.
ive decided to quit smoking.
but its just so DAMN HARD!

i miss the good old laid back days.
sitting at the horrible canteen
chatting away from morning till its time to depart.
*sigh*
oh well.

oh! before i forget!
Happy birthday MOMMIE!
&
Happy 1yr3mnth anniversary baby!

i maybe very screwed up inside,
that i didnt realize.
someone whom i used to talk abt,
tease&make fun off is much more screwed up inside.
now thats a thing to regret abt.

why must we all bend into peer pressure?
why is everyone competing to be perfect?
or trying to be perfect? OR even wanting others to be like them?

i say..

BE WHO YOU ARE! AND WHAT YOU COMFORTABLE BEING!

why must we pretend to be someone that our "other" would be comfortable being around?
why must we sacrifice all we did and who we are just to please them?
its pathetic really.
i admit, i am one too.
but then to think of it.
we're just wasting our precious life for someone who just doesnt
give a DAMN abt the YOU inside.
im sorry but ive just got to let this out.
i pity her alot.
i feel very sorry.
if only i cud take back all ive said.
i hope its just not too late..

finding my way back to you.

2008-05-28T19:39:00.002+08:00

im lost.
somewhere, out there.

trying my best to find my way back to you.
i see the light But, its far ahead.

lil by lil.
it takes time.
i love you, i do.
believe me.

i just need time.

hello!

2008-05-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

hahahhaha...

boredom :D

tis been ages my dear friend :D

2008-05-14T19:17:00.002+08:00

hmmmm been a week since i last blogged.

somehow, im just bored of it.
HAHAHHA

well, nothing much really been going on.
i simply just LOvvveee my friends!
ashie i love u! hahahaha

i gain friends.
i lose friends.
aww..fuck em'
hahahahaha..
dt goes to whom-shall-not-be-named.
You say dirty shit.
but uree worse than what you said abt them.
no friends!
stop being a fucking digi follower and stay away.
THANKS!

i guess dts abt enuf of drama going on.
till next time :D

pretty much moodless.

2008-05-10T19:33:00.001+08:00

nothing moree to say.

nothing much to feel.

disappointed. mixed up feelings.

bored as hell.
sleepy :(
missing them :)

Fuck the bloody day i was born!

2008-05-08T19:43:00.001+08:00

no i didnt enjoy my birthday!

enuf said

Mood : depressed.

2008-05-05T20:10:00.001+08:00

want to be alone.

waiting for a call.

dont talk to me unless ure the one ive been hoping for.

its very stoopid, really.

2008-05-03T17:57:00.002+08:00

I wonder
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side
How will I see
When Your love brought me to the light
Where do I go
When your hearts where I lay my head
When your not with me
How do I breathe

hmmm..
tiring,tiring.
went coll for no reason at all.
bored as hell.
depressed as usual.
*sighh**

yesterday was my first date in 4mnths.

how lame is that?

you see all those happy people
teasing eachother, holding hands&laughing.
You simply just block them out.
its a good excercise..
You dont think too much.
You concerntrate better.
but then it hurts moree then
both mentioned above..

i thought to my self two days ago.
what the hell am i doing?
You may treat life as though
theres a second one waiting for you.

but then
live life to the fullest.
spend your time with those you love as much as you can.
tell them how much you LOVE them.
cos you never know one day
everything could just disappear from your life.

yeah.
ive been a real bitch.
esp to me lovee.
yeah.

i feel awful
i feel very bad.

yeah.
i made a point that night
dt ill spend all my time with him.
talk to him like nothings wrong.
tell him how much i love him every single day.
hug him when ever i do get the chance.
even if things are falling apart ill paste it back together
even if it hurts , ill ignore the hurt.

i love you.
Better know so.

Appreciation.
You never know what you got, till what you got is gone.

its like a Fairytale with no happyending.

2008-04-30T21:05:00.002+08:00

*sigh**

after a long day at college.

i love me besties :D
i love dt.
doesnt it have a ring to it?
hahaha

frm today counting:
6days till my birthday.
and i dont feel special.
im just wondering why the days are going fast?
hmmm..

i feel it will be the biggest disappointment.
well, not the day after :D
i want LUNCH with my favourite people.
maybe dinner?
hahaha

so yeah! you guys wish me its enuf.
i honestly do not expect anything.
ill just breakdown in tears.

so yeah.

tell me,

2008-04-29T20:40:00.002+08:00

how am i suppose to feel
when you're not here?

i love paramore! :D

justin, uree pics are so awesomely fun :)
shud have gone then.
*sobs*

nvm..
we got gastronomy.
yay!

Lil Miss Obsessive.

2008-04-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

And I guess we're really over, so come over, i'm not over it.

And I guess we're really over, so come over, i'm not over it.

Late night you make me feel like i'm desperate, I'm not desperate.

Oh, a little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can't get over it.
-ashlee simpson-

Baby, it's fact.

2008-04-26T19:11:00.002+08:00

Our love is true.

i love you

&you love me too.

the world is our playground.

somehow,

2008-04-25T14:11:00.002+08:00

you feel so alone.
like nobody cares..not knowing theree aree a ton of people
thinking of you.

yeah, dts how i feel.
its pretty lame to sit by the fone waiting for a reply all day.
stay up till 12 am waiting for a call to assure you everything is okay.
when you never know dt person wouldnt do the same to you.

well, i dont know.
im not gonna writee moree abt this
cos i really dont want to be told to "date my blog."
harsh words but then..whatever.

im starving again.
nothing to eat..
damn you all people who can go out &hang arnd.

im one emotional wreck.

if i wasto be lock in an empty room.
id graffitti it with all my frustration
before id hang myself by the curtainless window.
so everyone would know .
honestly, i know dt people aree going thru worse then me.
but then again, if i would meat these kinda people we would die together :)

is this the after effects of PMS talking or is this the real me?

i dont even know me!
*sigh**

alritee enuf of this.
back to starvation.

what a beautiful lie.

2008-04-24T18:22:00.002+08:00

im dead bored.
just went out to eat
was told to be going out later but then
was lied too..

i shud have gone to s'pore!!
**sigh**
atleast somewhere to go.
back in k.l im a prisoner!

for 17yrs ivee been stuck at homee.
only way out is to school/college.
only get to go out by chance..
if their moods are good.
im free to go.
not allowed to go on dates, not allowed to go party dinners.
*sigh*sigh*

im starving at home.
theres more or less no food to eat!
mom's going outstation& she doesnt want to buy groceries.
Oh gosh!
fuck this! she's gone.. makes things worse.
no boyfriend.no going out.clean hse&take care of baby!

frustration.frustration.

Thats what you get,

2008-04-24T10:50:00.002+08:00

when you let your heart win.

Very sentimental
And my cryings detrimental,
Tell me what I’m getting into,
I can’t lose my mind.
I think its time for me to let go cause my heart can’t take it no mo,
You were all I lived for but I leave you behind.

I’m a be OK,
I’m a be OK,
I’ll survive, I’ll be fine, I wont cry, no way
I’m a be OK,
I’m a be OK,
Don’t you talk, I’ll move on,
Baby walk away

be ok by chrisette michele

:DD

just like a tattoo, ill always have you.

2008-04-23T20:41:00.002+08:00

stop the heartache,
rewind the good times,
fast forward the bad things,
&&pause the unforgettable moments.

this is my 4th time coming online today :D
boredom!
yeap! puree boredom!

i miss my baby,
i miss coll!
hahahahhahahhaha

i miss.. yeah :D
ehhehehhehehehhehehehheheheh

ooOoo
sex appeal..

very random :)

save the earth! kill yourself!

2008-04-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

i believe that if we dont stop destroying the earth.
mother nature would go all out to destroy us.

i dont believe that we all would die by the apocalypse
or as you idiots know it as the huge asteroid that will destroy the earth.
i think we all will die by:

starvation
flood
an infectious virus

yes!i think that all animals&plants would suffer and die first.
and we would be next.

so stop all your nonsense and atleast help
save the earth.
recycle,reuse,reduce.
stop all the burning of rubbish which is not needed to do so,
you burn. you still have to clean up the ashes right?
you sweep them into the nearest longkang
and when the drains get flooded
you blame the government and shit!
don't blame them. BLAME YOURSELF!

if only the world would go organic.
the people didnt discover "technology"
Our great grand children would not suffer.
Or even our children!
HAHAHAHA
somehow i feel im talking rubbish here.
but to me this makes sense.

nvm..take your time
to absorb all this information
into your small peanut sized brain.
thanks!

so true :D

2008-04-22T18:38:00.001+08:00

the eyes they drown in tears.

2008-04-22T18:25:00.001+08:00

time is standing still.

The Emo Shoes

2008-04-21T10:29:00.002+08:00

yipes :D
boredom strikes at 1o.3o in the morning.
im baking cookies today :D
"Jenny's cookies"
the recipe given to me by my senior
its really yummy.
i call it double chocolate cookies with almond nibs
hehehehehhehe...

its too late to apologize.

2008-04-20T21:30:00.005+08:00

hey idiots!
im back.
lazy to update my blog.
dont want to update it, dont want to be told too..
"date my blog" wtf!

but
ill be updating it
so you can have something "interesting" to read.

loads of things been going on.
[well, not exactly]
im dead bored!
my college buddies are going to s'pore tumoro :)
so dt gives me a week holi :D

ive been pretty much moodless.
despite my annoying "family"
coll is just very tiring.
i end up looking like a freakin' zombie
as days turn to weeks&weeks to months.

im turning seventeen
in 2wks time?
and i just dont feel excited.
the older i get
the more pathetic life becomes.

waiting for the right time
to dye my hair jet black&streak it red.
pierce my upper lip-lower&tongue.
BUT unfortunately my friends,
IM NOT ALLOWED!
to those jumping for joy.
*gives an evil stare*
fuck you!

ivee been tempted to try shisha&weed
ivee been tested to pierce my belly.
ivee been sharing my deepest darkest secrets with my 2 lovely smoking kawans.
&im NOT satisfied!

its 9.45pm& im eating beans,eggs&hash browns.
now, who does that?
breakfast for dinner :)
aint that just fan-tab-ulous?!

alright ive run out of things to say.
after my lovely dinner.
im going straight to bed.
good night you!
& take care all those Culinary people going to s'pore.
Justin(i know u reading this)
buy me something good frm S'pore!!

baby, im back!

2008-04-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

1.Who knows the real you?
i dont even know the real me.

2. When was the last time you went
out?
today.

3.If you could kiss anyone who would
it be?
haha.

4. What songs are you listening to?
baby come back to me- Vanessa H.

5. who does it remind you of?!
no one in particular.

6. Last movie you watched?
errm cj7?

7. Which of your friends live closest
to you?
ser.ben

8. What is your favorite shirt?
its green. enuf said.

9. Do you drive?
soon.

10. What did you do yesterday?
nothing much.shop&eat? hahahah

12. Do you trust your friends?
yep.

13. Who was the last person to call
you?
no one. :(

14.What annoys you?
pain!

15. Do you want multiple piercing?
sorta :P

16. Your fave song in your player?
many many :)

17. Last time you went to the mall?
yesterday.

18. What was the last thing you ate?
food?

19. Which of your friends would make
the best roommate?
hahahaha. Ser-rhea-mel-justin? hahahahah
i cant decide!

20. Last thing you purchased?
cant remember.

21. Last vacation you were in?
penang.

22. Do people ever spell your name
wrongly?
YES!

23. What's the last compliment you
received?
cant remember.

24. Who was the last friend you
hugged?
mel. i guess. or was it tam?

25. Which celeb are you eye candying?
yikes! someee dude frm the jonas brothers.

26. What's next on your wishlist?
deep sleep :)

27. Which band's concert would you
want to watch?
f.o.b

28. What colour are your nails?
multi-colored.

29. Date down a special day for you?
173

30. What thing your friends didn't
know about you?
hahahahaha.

tagged from lana

2008-04-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

1: Who has your heart?
him.

2: Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
both?

3: Who was the last person to call you?
sister.

4: Would you die for anyone?
yep.

5: Did you meet anyone new today?
nope.

6: What's the last bone you broke?
i sprained my wrist.

7: Did you sing at all today?
hahahhahaha..i guess.

8: Whens the last time you cried?
today.yesterday.the day before.

9: What book did you read last?
cant remember.

10: are you scared of spiders?
nah.sort off.

11: How do you walk?
like a retard.

12: What do you think of Fergie?
sexy voice.

13: Do you believe in love?
i am in love.

14: Are you wearing SOCKS right now?
nope.

15: What is the last thing you purchased online?
fluffyfriendsfood (Facebook)

16: Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

17: Do you curse a lot?
nah. depends.

18: Who was the last person in your bed
me.myself&i.

19: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
somewhere out with his kawans :(

20: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
yeah.

21: Who's Myspace Password Do You Have?
alot of people though.

22: Do you have a job?
nah..

23: Is there someone you wanna date right now?
nope.

24: Have you ever crawled through a window?
YES!

25: Who knows a secret or two about you?
all my lovelies.

26: Can you handle the truth?
nope.

27: Are you too forgiving?
sometimes?

28: Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
yep.

29: Do you have trust issues?
yeah.

30: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Melanie. thanks for being there. love yah!

32: If you could pick one person to disappear from the planet, who would it ?
myself.

33: Are you going to heaven or hell?
only time will tell.

34: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?
ser.melanie.

35: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
ehh? both?

36: What is your hair like now?
curly.curly.

37: Is there something bright next to you?
nah.

38: Do you want someone you can't have?
nope.

39: Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
must i answer this?

40: Do you believe you can change for someone?
yes. depends.

41: Are you the only one at your house?
nope.

42: Have you kissed someone this past week?
yeah.

43: Do you talk to the person you have a thing for?
hahahahhaha. everyday.

44: Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
many many times :(

45: Have you ever punched a guy?
yep.

46: Have you ever gone to the beach?
2yrs ago.

47: How good is your eyesight?
hahahahhaha...

48: What are you doing saturday?
sleeping :)

49: Have you ever started a sentence with "No offense, but..."?
yep.

50: Have you ever kissed a smoker?
i kiss him everyday& every chance i get. :)

when you look me in the eyes

2008-04-13T21:13:00.001+08:00

&tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

tagged for lana

2008-04-12T21:33:00.003+08:00

1. What is more difficult:
To let go everything or forget what
happened?
let go of everything.

2. Think of the last time you were
angry. Why were you angry?
*sigh** i just want to be alone.

3. You will die in three minutes.
Last call?
to all the pathetic losers "cu in hell fuck faces!"

4. If you could do anything OR wish
anything, what would it be?
nothing.to be fine?

5. You can have one of the following
two things: trust or love
hard.hard. both? hmmm..

6. Would you or have you ever
blackmailed someone?
yep.

7. Think of the last person whom you
know.
benny.

8. Are you the kind of friend that you
would want to have as a friend?
nope. with all my emo shit. nope.

9. Would u sleep with someone if u had
the chance?
nah. maybe? i dont know.

10. Are you old fashioned?
errr.

11. What would be harder for you, to
tell someone you love them or that you
do not love them back?
to tell em you dont love em back.

12. What things would be the hardest
thing for you to give up on?
him.

13. Romantic love, when was the last
time you told someone you loved them?
i do every min :D

14. Imagine. It is a dark night, you
are alone, it is raining outside, you
hear someone walking around outside
your window. WHO do you wish was there
with you?
someone.

15. Would you give a homeless person
CPR?
i'll brush his sexy homeless lips first.

IF YOU HAVE 3 MONTHS TO LIVE:

16. Do you tell anyone or everyone you
are going to die?
nope.

17. What do you do with your remaining
days?
make things right.

18. Would you be afraid?
nope.

:D

2008-04-11T20:28:00.001+08:00

thanks you all..

for making me feel special!
had a blast with u guys :D
cant wait for tumoro.
a day filled with FUN :DD

JUSTIN!
CAMWHORE :D

love yah all..

oh btw.. my birthday is next month
and i dont want anything...
my valentines sucked.
my baby's birthday sucked.
my anniversary sucked.
so i dont expect my birthday to be any special
thanks :)

2008-04-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

in the words of A:
if anything were to happen.
dont cry about it.
its not your loss..
its them.
so just walk away smiling..
happy that you dont
have to deal with this anymore..

hmm.. when he said this i felt like crying.
i feel its okay now.
You can promise the whole world.
But im sorry, promises aree always meant to be broken
stoopid.
why do i care so much?
even so it doesnt mean a thing..
i caree too much.
its so wrong.

if ey' dont really care nuts abt me
why do i care so much for ey'
somehow, i feel very used.
VERY USED!

its 9.15
and im going sleep soon.
im just gonna sleep this offf...

stoopid you!

Stop cruelty to animals!

2008-04-10T10:28:00.004+08:00

SPCA
society for the Prevention of cruelty to Animals.

i stumbled upon this website.
CLICK ME

there aree moree pictures but my blog couldnt upload.
its so depressing to see these animals
treated like that.

do everyone a favour.
if You want a pet make sure you take good care of it.
dont abuse it!

im planning to adopt a kitten :D
and give it to my baby.
there aree 3 kittens up for adoption.

The adoption fees for dogs are from RM200, and for cats are from RM70. This includes:

A new friend or companion.
1 month free treatment.
Spay or Neuter surgery.
Deworming.
Vaccination.

im also planning to volunteer
but i dont want to be alone :(
heee..

SPCA is not hard to find.
if you know where ISKL or Mutiara International is .
then you sure to find the place.

:D

:)

2008-04-10T10:10:00.001+08:00

i hope it will be finee :D

everything seems okay though.
i hope it will remain this way.

i trust you.

You have stolen my heart.

2008-04-09T19:46:00.001+08:00

and i just cant get it back.

coll was fine though :D

i dont feel myself.
i dont have the mood.

But
there are a few lovely people dt always makes my day :D
thanks serhemarvind.mel.chee lim.Justin(i know u reading this).neo.tristan..

thank you :D

if you love someone let them go, not because you stop caring for them but t see if they care enough to come back.

2008-04-09T09:37:00.001+08:00

"To care so much for someone, knowing that they dont care NUTS about you."
i really dont knowww..

it hurts though.
i think history is gonna repeat itself.
soon..

honestly, i havee NO mood whatsoever.
i dont have dt "inspiration" dt i had when
i first started in KDU..

ive lost it.
lots of things been going on.
and i feel like running.
FAST!
and FAR AWAY.
i feel like packing my bags
and telling everyone to forget me!
especially YOU.

i dont mean anything bad.
its just i feel something is missing.
somethings not in its right place.
somethings not what it use to be.
but i shrug that feeling MANYY TIMES!
so nobody would know how i feel.
nobody would go nuts and say
"Oh!gosh!what the hell is wrong with her now?!"
i know many of u are sick of listen to me babble
abt my annoying self.
i just have too many thoughts
feelings. i cant express to anyone..
but myself. but if i do..
i express it in the hardest way..
which i just dont want to do so..
cos im sick of it!
i just want someone to really listen to me.
but lets see.. someone is too busy with his classes..
which i dont get in the way off.

who wud u choose?
someone who always is by your side&makes u feel comfortable.
or someone who isnt always there that you argue with over stoopid lil things?

flashbacks

2008-04-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

flashbacks of what was always meant to be from the start :)

i love you.

when boredom strikes.

2008-04-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

Do not copy each other's answers

The tag questions must be 100% the same

List Out 20 names

Tag people after doing it

1. benden
2. serra
3. rhea
4. lana
5. melanie
6. justin
7. chee lim
8. tristan
9. tammy
10. neo
11. natalia
12. suyin
13. ashwini
14. wyn
15. ji eun
16. gary
17. jenny
18. ilissa
19. shortcake
20. edwin

How do you know 14?wyn
*awwww.... my kawan since gd7.

What would you do if you had never met 1benden
* wait!

What would you do if 9 and 20 dated you? tammy, eddie
* i dont know.. ahahhahaha...

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? justin, jenny
* woah! okay..

Do you think 8 is attractive? tristan
* hell yeah! sortoff :D

Do you know anything about 12's family? suyin
*awwwwww... sooo in too their food!!!

Tell me something about 7. chee lim
* my Sylvester! ehhehehehhe

What is 18's favourite? ilissa
* favourite wat? hehehhe

What language does 15 speak? ji eun
* she's universal!

Who is going out with 19? shortcake
* no one. i guess

How old is 16 now? Gary
* not suree..

When was the last time you talked to 13? ashwini
* 2days ago.

Who is 2's favourite singer?Serra
* crazy girl lah dt one.. i think its david cook? heheh

Would you date 4? lana
* i wud. hehehe

Would you date 17?jenny
* maybe.. hahaha

Is 15 single?ji eun
* not suree.

What is 10's last name? Neo
* chun hooi :D or was it chun tooi? heheh

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? natalia
* maybe? :D

Which school does 3 go to? rhea
* sayfol*school/college

Where does 6 live? justin
* cant remember.. ehhehe

What is your favourite thing about 5? melanie
* shes my monyet! the person who understands me the most :)

TO TAG OTHER BLOGGERS:
1. Serra
2. rhea
3. ji eun
4. wyn
5. shireen
6. nat
7. lana
8. benden
9. Whoever that has a blog, knows me and is reading this.

2008-04-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

tagged from justin

7 Deadly Sins
Gluttony
1. Do you think you eat more than you should?- nah!i dont really eat much.
2. What is your favorite meal?- erm?dont know.
3. What did you have for dinner today (or yesterday)?-homefood.fastfood?
4. What is your favorite dessert?-cake!choco moist cake!
5. Can you cook well?-ermm so-so..
6. Are you a fruit or veggie person?- fruit.
7. What is your favorite restaurant to go to?-any as long as theres good food:)
8. Do you feel comfortable with your weight?-notreally.
9. Are you vegetarian or vegan?- more of a meat eater.
10. Describe your normal eating habits.- hahahaa.
Lust
1. How much do you find yourself thinking about sex?-erm?sometimes?
2. Are you a virgin?-must i ans this?
3.If not, who did you lose your virginity to and when?-***
4. Do you believe you should be in love to have sex?-depends.
5. Have you ever cheated on your significant other?-yes
6. What the first thing you look for in a boy/girl?- eyes?and hair.
7. Do you have any special fantasies?- ahhahhaha.
8. Have you been in lust more than love?- yeah once or twice.
9. Would you have sex with more than one person?- nope..
10. Who have you lust for?-someone.
Greed
1. What do you want more than anything right now?-freedom.
2. Does money play an important part of your life?-YES!
3. What are your goals for the future?-being the head chef of my own restaurant&making a difference in the world.
4. Do you think money is more important than love?both is equal.
5. If you were given one million dollars right now, what would you do with it?-half for me&half for the hungry kids in africa.
6. Has anyone ever called you spoiled or greedy?-YES!**evil ppl**
.7. Do your parents have a lot of money?-nope.
8. How much money do you spend in one week?-depends.
9. Do/would you share with people that are less fortunate?-yep.
10. Have you ever robbed someone?-nope.
Sloth
1. Have many people called you lazy?- YES!
2. How much sleep do you get at night?-3-14hrs.
3. Do you often take naps in the middle of the day?-yep.
4. What was the most depressing time of your life?- well, there aree lotss.
5. What is the best way to relax?-sleep.. bring me to a beach!
6. Would you consider yourself more of a follower or leader?-both?
7. Would you consider yourself a caring person?- YEP!
8. What time do you go to bed at night?- late! VERY!
9. What do you waste most of your time doing?-online..tv..
10. Would you rather go out somewhere or stay home?-OUT!FREEDOM!
Wrath
1. Who was the last person you were upset with?-my baby? hey! im being honest!
2. What is the meanest thing you’ve ever done to someone?- broke their heart?
3. Do you hate anyone?- sortoff.
4. Are you angry a lot?- nah..
5. What was the last thing that made you mad?-hair!
6. Have you even been in a physical fight with someone?-nope.
7. Has there been a time that you wanted to seek revenge?- nope.
8. What is your biggest pet peeve?- wat?
9. How do you express your anger and frustration?- BLOG!
10. Is it easy for you to forgive?-depends.
Envy
1. Who are you most jealous of?-slim girls!
2. What is something you want that your best friend has?- her slimness!
3. What is one thing you think you are lacking in life?-confidence.
4. Do you think of yourself as an envious person?-sortoff.
5. How would you consider yourself lucky?-i dont.
6. Unlucky?- very.
7. Have you ever felt sorry for yourself?-yeah.
8. Overall, do you think you have everything you need?-getting there.
9. Is there anyone that has been envious of you?-dont know.
10. Do you want a better life than what you have?- yeah.. doesnt everyone.

Pride
1. What is your best physical feature?-i dont know u tell me.
2. What do you like most about your personality?- friendly.
3. How much time do you take to get ready in the morning?- 15-3o mins.
4. Do you wear a lot of make-up?-nah...im all natural.
5. How often do you go shopping?- whenever i get the chance.
6. Are your looks very important to you?- yes.
7. Would you ever like to be a model?yep.i wished!
8. What could be improved about your body?- lose weight.
9. Do you think that you’re better than others?- nope. there aree plenty better!
10. What is your most embarrassing moment?-**secret**

im so so sorry

2008-04-05T15:25:00.000+08:00

i didnt mean to...

boredom.

its a must

2008-04-03T09:59:00.001+08:00

if you would trade places with me..
then you know how i really feel.

try
being pressured abt what has happened.
staying homee morning-night.
taking care of your nephew.
and told u have no freedom..
and family is better then friends.
try that.

Im sure u wud feel the same way i feel
scrambled up&confused.

going to cut me hair.
hope it looks good.
hmmmmm....
bored.

i miss my baby,
i hope he misses me too.

hey you :D

2008-04-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

oh so tiring :(

no sleep for 2days?
well, not enuf sleep though.

my arms are cramped.
really sleepy.
and the back of my heel is bruised.
:D

i miss my baby,
i hope he misses me too.

a sigh of relief

2008-03-30T21:08:00.001+08:00

everything is finee now..
i hopee soo.

i feel really sorry.
i thought its gonna end.
i love my baby :D

next week is me buddies birthday.
but i cant goo :(
boooo!

"You take away my everything
and try to replace it with material things.
But all i want is my FREEDOM!"

the start of something new :D

2008-03-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

iveeee put up a neww bloggy..

turns out this cant put up nicee layouts.
its okay :DDD